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Sunday, December 26, 2010

2 days to SP

My mum decided not to send me to KK, due to her meetings and things to be settled up at her school. To be honest, I haven't settled up with my things and I am a bit tensed up. (Tensed up pun nak gtaw kat blog...sungguh drama lol). My mother informed me that she wants her celcom broadband back, and she promises to buy me a new one. whether maxis or celcom.

Thus, we went to Maxis Centre in my hometown. However, we had misunderstanding and we can't understand what was the lady trying to say. It is something related to the usage of my hp bla bla bla. Finally I made my choice. I bought the 3 Gb celcom broadband and mom paid for me.

Till to this extent, I haven't finished packing up my things, books and clothes and I have a bus to catch at 4pm on the 28th.

This is what we should named new semester blue. Everyone is groaning and hesitant to go back to the campus. Let's see what will I face this semester

  • This is my last semester in IPSAH, Sungai Petani.
  • I will receive my last free allowance this semester.
  • I will end up meeting my 6 years friends and bestfriends and foes this semester.
  • I will meet up TESLIAN from UPSI again.
  • I will miss Sungai Petani and Pakcik Kantin.
  • Menerima azab degree twinning dengan membuat thesis. (Still in love with Mr.t)

 May Allah bless my journey.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Impian Terindah

Sometimes, when feelings are very hard to be spell out with words, songs could be the best one to express what we feel and think. I stumbled upon this song by Najwa Mahiaddin, and it really describes my feeling. (yes, I am heart broken and jiwang...just shut up lol).

Najwa - Impian Terindah 

Terjaga dari mimpiku
Bayanganmu seakan di sisiku
Mungkinkah ku masih dalam khayalan
Bisakah jadi kenyataan

Tahukah kau ku di sini
Menyimpan segala rasa di hati
Mungkinkah kau akan mengerti
Andai ku luahkan semuanya

Kau impian terindah
Ingin ku jadikan ia nyata
Kau ilhamkan cinta
Di dalam hatiku hanyalah dirimu

Tlah ku katakan semua
Ku serahkan kepadaNya

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Kenny Rogers, and Harris

My watch shown that it was 12 am. Sighing, another day. I was online in Facebook, then I saw the tab highlighted by orange notification. It told me that I received a message from 'Sunoko Naakhara'. Well, don't ask me who the hell is sunoko nakahara is, I think it is one of the Japanese actor or actress. It is a pseudonym of my cousin from Mum's side, Kak Abby.

"Ella, where are you?"
"KK...Putatan to be exact"
"Whose place?"
"Abg Ian"
"Bisuk masih di sini?"
"What are you doing here?"
"Thesis..reference in UMS"
"Fuiyoo, ganas juga. Dari negeri ke negeri"

Well, hidup kena aggressive sikit, baru boleh berjaya. So, I set a date with Kak Abby. She fetch me at Burger King and we drove to One Borneo. Near to my mother's house in Sepanggar. She chose Kenny Rogers for our late lunch. Tea and lunch to be exact, TLUNCH, I call it.  We were caught in the jam as people in KK are celebrating Christmas.

Kak Abby asked me whether I am going to Dad's place for Christmas. I don;t think so. Yeah yeah isn't there anymore. It's just an empty seat from now on. I will smile on how my yeah yeah forgotten that I am Muslim. He will offer me beers, and several of my relatives will gawk at us, waiting for my answer. That is how we are in Sabah. We are assimilated to each other, and it depends on me how I adapt the situation.

Then we roamed around in Harris, a book shop in One Borneo. With only 15 ringgit in my purse, it is impossible for me to buy anything. I have an eye on Stephen Hawking new book and several other non-fiction. It was just yesterday I purchased 'Dork' by Sidin Vadukut. I was nearly reaching shopping orgasm when I met this book again. Why? I will update in my next post. One thing that I realize about reading. Reading can be expensive. And as a  woman and single (ahem), it is magical when I can spend RM400 solely on books without hesitant, and for sure I have more books than clothes.

Kak Abby sent me home. We talked and talked. About love. About Life. We both agree that marriage is something really 'big'. Quotation of the day:

"Ella, you need to love someone much enough for him to be your husband"

I think she is right.

We arrived at home around 7.30 pm. Abang Ian was already off to Masjid Negeri. 'Kelas Taranum' Kak Ida informed us. We spent time together, playing with lil Sophea. Then, Kak Abby went off, went back to Sembulan. I don't know when we are going to meet again. She is always not in Malaysia.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Azam baru


I want to forget him and being vanished into the air, so he couldn't find me anymore.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Call me crazy...

There are two foods that I can't really reject in peninsular:
a) Tempoyak
b) Assam Laksa

Tempoyak Menu:
a) Sandwich Tempoyak (Yerp, I make it like butter)
b) Meggi Tempoyak (Gaulkan tempoyak bersama kuah meggi)
c) Bubur nasi tenpoyak (Gaulkan bubur bersama tenpoyak)
d) Nasi Tempoyak (Makan cam sambal)
e) UIam Tempoyak (Macam Sambal juga)
f) Ayam masak kicap dengan tempoyak ( ayam beli kat cafe, n gaul ngan tempoyak)
g) KFC tempoyak (Sedap hingga menjilat jari, campur ngan sos cili)
h) Burger maktab denagn tempoyak (Buat macam cheese)
 dan macam2 lagi yang anda boleh bygkan.

Assam Laksa:
Tempat best makan adalah rahsia..hehe...

What happened when you don't gain your parents' trust to drive?

I have this bad habit while driving. Sabahan said 'Suka main minyak'. I will push the oil pedal as in an elephant stomping on the ground. No. I am exaggerating. However, the action would make my mother scared enough when I'm driving. The situation is optimum enough for her hypertension a.k.a Darah Tinggi to be outraged again. While I was driving Nasrin's car in Sg Petani, the situation lead him to 'meroyan' like 30 minutes. Yes, they are my own version of JPJ and I get free lecture on that issue. They are my own version Driving Tutor, apart of my brother who opens a driving school. To be honest, I do';t know how much is my driving license because it's on him. Sayang Abang Ian.

My  mum don't trust me to drive at all. We always come to an argument about cars. I can't even touch the car key. Yes, I solely depending on public transport. It;s not that my parents couldn't afford a car for me. They just DON'T TRUST ME AT ALL. Pathetic and sadness. Rasa cam super tidak disayangi pun ada juga.

Eh, janganlah pulak kata saya tak bersyukur. In fact, I am quiet lucky. TheHowever, when it come to something really big, really need my responsibility, I am still a baby in front of my parents' eyes. Right now, I am frustrated with them. Please, I am 23 years old and I wanna drive.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

11 days to go...

11 days to go back to Sungai Petani, a place where I start to know what is life all about. Then I moved to Tanjung Malim to learn what is campus life is all about, then went back to Sungai petani again to know what is being a practical teacher all about. Oh yeah! stop asking me about this so called Twinning Program all about. Why? because I am surrounded by people who keep asking about the so called 6 years B.Ed TESL program. And I am getting sick when people keep asking these questions:

1) Bila kamu habis study? (When will you finish your study?)
2) Kenapa lama betul kau buat degree? (Why are you taking longer time to finish your degree?)
3) Di mana kamu grade? UPSI or IPSAH? (Where is your convocation? IPSAH or UPSI?)
4) Kenapa kamu terus posting? (Why on earth will you be posted earlier than other TESL students?)

Usually, I would be hesitant to be interviewed with these questions. These were my answers for these questions fro the past 5 years.

1) Lamaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi saya habis...2011
2) Tu lah kan? lambat bah program kami...2 tahun foundation and 4 tahun degree.
4) Because I am sponsored and selected by KPM after I finished my SPM. Of course they wouldnt want to  waste all their money by letting us lazying around.

My answers will be replied with several different face expressions, which I just don't care.
But after went back to IPSAH last year, I realize how different my classmates and I are. We are wayyyy too mature, dan ibarat kata nasren 'KITALAH ABANG ABANG DAN KAKAK KAKAK ITU!" . KPLI students were used to be too matured for me. We used to call them 'ABANG' and 'KAKAK'. Now it is legal to call them 'KAWAN2 KPLI' lol.

11 days to go back to Sungai Petani. I admit that I love the town way better than Tanjung Malim. Cheap food, nice city and nice people. However, I realize that going back to Sungai Petani this time would be harder than any of my trips. THESIS, PEOPLE! Do you hear me YO? There will be more trips to USM. More trips to UUM. I am trying to be positive all the time. One of my dreams is to do research on education and to improve the state of education in Malaysia. This is my first baby step and there is no plan, just do it. Research should be more enjoyable than practical. I bet. I am definitely a people person. (Yeah, I am too cheerful and sometimes my grin makes me look like a schizo--->according to my cousin). However, when I was in my practical, I realised that I need to deal with a pot pourri of characters and work loads. Thanks to that, I lost 5 kgs ...YIPPY!.

There is no turning back. There is no U turn either. I need to face it with an open heart.

Well SP, here I come.

Friday, December 17, 2010

The accent (Let's get serious ahaha)

Ok, this post might be mocked down by several friends. Yeah, I know it is kinda academic. (ACADEMIK LAH SGT YE ELLA) . Anyway, those who know me well, they will know how critical I can be. This is kinda of my post practical reflection. I didn't realize that I develop  my own accent after 6 years learning English to be my second language. In fact, I am learning to teach English as a second language. Nope, I was not born in England, Australia or in any other English speaking country. I was born in a small district hospital, called Hospital Daerah Keningau, Sabah. When I speak English to somebody that just knew me, they will think that I came from a big city, just because of my language. This is an interesting yet it is also disappointed for me. Why? Only orang KL ke boleh cakap English? 

Let me make things clear here. Most of my students are intimidated to speak the language with their friends. They told me that they are shy. The worst reason is they said that they are Malay, and there is no reason for them to speak English. Well, I am trying to be an eye opener for them , encouraging them to speak the language in my class. The reason is they need not to be shy in the class because it is an English class. They should optimize the time given for them to learn English. Through out the development of language education around the world, we could see on how some countries promote other languages in their education systems. A brief example, is America. They have classes for several other languages such as France and Spanish. This is a new trend in Malaysia. In the school that I had my practical on, we have Japanese class and the students whom register for it will have a formal education. The analogy could be practiced with English. English is a language which for me has dignity and its own value like other languages. When we are learning a language, we are learning the phonetics or the sound system. In order to be in a successful path of our learning, most English teacher trainee will practice the sound even when we are speaking in an informal way. Even after 6 years of learning the language, I am still doing silly mistakes. 

I am seriously in vain when people say that those who are speaking English is kinda berlagak, poyo atau apa2 yang sewaktu dengannya. I know it well that Bahasa Malaysia is the formal language in Malaysia. I have an acquaintance of' pakcik gera'i in front of my campus who could speak English very well because he received English education under British Government. In fact, I am glad to entertain him to speak the language. 

And, I am seriously 'geli' to Malaysians who admit that they can't speak Bahasa Malaysia very well just because of they learn English for 4,5 or 6 years.Don't get me wrong. I don't hate them. However, we all know that English is not your native language. Language can be abstract due to the assimilation of races. For a classic example is myself. My native language will be more than 1. It can be Chinese, Kadazan or Brunei since I am a mix of these three races. However, my parents divorce when I was 4, and my mum basically speak Bahasa Brunei at home. Amazingly, I grow up in a society that speak standard Bahasa Melayu and myself have a hint of Kadazan accent. My father and I will speak in English every time we met. My father is an English teacher himself before he joined the Education Division. While I was in high school, I am very active in Bahasa Malaysia Public Speaking, Pantun and Debate. I am simply fond of Bahasa Melayu because I believe that any language is beautiful. Why I wasn't in English group? Well, simply. They are not active on that time.

So why am I writing this post? As a teacher-to-be, it is important for me to change the perspective of English language learners. It is also important to have balanced skills in both Bahasa Melayu and English. I adore Prof Abdullah Hassan. I found his book, an old book in my house, Nahu Bahasa Melayu. However, I can't believe myself that I finally met him in my campus in a seminar. I adore how he appreciate a language. Speaking a language supposed to be beautiful. Although he is a specialist in Bahasa Melayu, I was shocked when he spoke English in his lecture. He speaks English as beautiful as he speaks Bahasa Melayu.

'Tugas Kami ialah Memandaikan Bangsa'

The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires.
~William Arthur Ward~

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Encik D dan saya

Saya kenali Encik D pada pertengahan tahun 2009. Kami mula berkenalan di Karamunsing Shopping Complex, Kota Kinabalu. Pada masa itu, saya sungguh teratrik dengan pakaian Encik D. Badannya tegap, berbaju merah saga, boleh jadim idaman setiap orang. Semenjak itu, saya mula bermesra dengan Encik D. Hampir setiap masa kuluangkan untuk Encik D. Encik D pula sentiasa membantu saya dalam apa-apa masalah. 

Tapi bila Encik D mula sakit, terganggu emosinya, saya juga terganggu. Harap-harap Encik D tak sakit lagi lepas ni. Saya sentiasa menyayangi Encik D.

I love you Encik Dell. 

:) hahahaha

A personality test

Found this quiz in somebody blog...

1. Open this website :

2. Take the Personality Quiz

3. Copy Paste the result to your blog, facebook, or whever you want

4. Tag your friends including me :)

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Tag: Ibrahim, Lailee, Mimi

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Like a fool

Have u feel like a fool?
I do.
It feels like a dagger in your heart.
but the dagger is invisible,
which is hurt, and you can't pull it,
It's there
still there
and there is no cure to it
I guess.

Because, even the best doctor
couldn't diagnose what is my sickness,
They can't see it,
They can't feel it,
But the pain is cancerous.
It makes my heart rotten,
and replenish again, and rotten,
and replenish again and rotten.
The feelings is mechanical,
it's robotic.
I think it's too robotic till I act like I have no heart to be hurt.

Ella Chin
Kuarters Guru Keningau
15 December 2010
(10 days to Christmas, which I spent with my beloved yeah yeah for the past years, the best memory, and now I am celebrating how fool I am for the past 3 months)

Friday, December 10, 2010

Anak Murid

Anak murid lagi cun dari cikgu.
Uh! Ini tak boleh jadi.
I need a makeover...

Thursday, December 9, 2010

i realise that...

i realise that by 2011

i will have a job
teaching English is my profession
i will have my first official salary
i will have my own wheelie
i will realise that sooner or later mummy will start talking about marriage
i will need to be less sellfish
I will officially be an adult... <3

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

We love karaoke like heaven!!!

Tell me, who doesn't love to fantasize of being a very good and popular singer, screaming at the top of your lung although fart sounds are Gazillion better then your voice? Who doesn't love to have a small crowd cheering at your voice when you are screaming the highest note of your song? Because, if you said we are syok sendiri, perasan best or whatsoever, I have at least 7 friends who are considered as Geng Bas Sekolah  Geng Karok.

The evidences are here...

'Karaoke Markah' as Nasrin called it in Sungai Petani (Chekgu was singing lagu Ziana, Nasrin as a backup vocal)

Karaoke Jamban in Tanjung Malim (This was taken during Study Week, Pre Exam Anxiety LOL)

Nasrin, I and KJ. (Ratu Karaoke UPSI)
Gombak, Me, Nasrin and KJ (Tired faces, 3 jam melalak)
One of the trips from Red Box Sogo during Study Week, hell yeah, exam drives us  to be like this (Front Seats: Nasrin, Adha, Back Seat: KJ, Atai and I)
What had happened to us?

This will explain...

The 'terconvert' part is actually our inside joke. My buddy couldn't stop 'bahan' me selama tujuh keturunan because people always thought I am converted to Muslim as I still carry my Chinese Surname.

Till now, tanpa karaoke siapalah kami semua...

Majulah Karaoke Untuk Negara

My Nephew, Muhammad Ameer Ikhwan

Witty. Clever but Cengeng.

Ameer and his peace sign

I wonder what were they talking about. (In the coat is Ameer's youngest brother, Aiman)

Ameer: Kak Ella, tell me a story please...
Me: Ok. One day, there was a princess named Cinderella...
Ameer: Ala... I don't like girl's story... Tell me a story about Ultraman...
Me: (Yawning...It's 10 pm anyway, and we were waiting for our mothers in the hotel room in Kudat 
        Sabah)One day, Ultraman Taro met Ultraman Tiga... Ultraman Tiga said ' Hello there Taro, How Are      
        You?"...Well, Ultraman Taro said ' I am fine Tiga. How do you do?' ( is
Ameer: How come Ultraman could talk if they can't even open their mouth?
Me: !@#$%^&*(

Property of Toei Production and Tsurabaya Production

My first picture as a teacher.

Spot Me!

Somehow I will smile every time I look at this picture. Sharmila was late and my handphone's battery was zero. This is the first position, as I remember, the teachers asked me to reshuffle the position again.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Shopping List

HOHO, let's rip our parents' pocket...

Things that I need to buy

  • Loreal Total Repair Shampoo and Conditioner
  • Anlene Choco Milk 700 gram 
  • Toothpaste Medium size
  • Face Foam
  • Tooth Brush
  • Jasmine Tea
  • Ooolong tea
  • Equal
  • Spiral Bound 5 compartments note book
  • A good pair of black court shoes
  • Yardley Red Rose EDT.
Sekian Terima Kasih

Thursday, December 2, 2010


I am an easily annoyed people. Here is the list of annoying matters that already reach my breaking point.

Semester break means u really have a 'break'. However, the idea of having a break is irrelevant if u live a double life like us, which you will be chased by others asking about works and whatever registeration. Commonlah, it's sickening, and as an easily annoyed person, I sometimes could not tolerate the system itself!

Then, here comes the matter of water problem in my area. This problem makes me miss IPSAH so much which we could savour the water as much as we can. I know its a bad habit, yet everyone needs at least 3 medium pails of clean water to bath. Who are you to deny that.

The third thing that could break my patient is annoying message ring tone. If you live in a dorm like me, you could hear all sorts of ring tone, ranging from Rihanna to any sort of wildlife noise. Hey you people, I know I am only using handphone LG RM 95, I can't afford IPhone4 and I know you you have the most advanced handphone in the world. Could you just please respect people around you who are easily rippled to these kind of thing. I need my sleep!!! Please, please and please use a simple ringtone, as you are sleeping with your handphones 24-7 and I am sure you are not deaf enough to hear it rings everytime your bf, teman tapi mesra, sahabat handai or rakan taulan message you.

Fourth is whatever jewellery that makes 'Santa Claus Sound'. I get enough of ring bells from school and I am sick of any bells that the girls wear. I ain't going to preach here, but I think you know the hukum hakam itself, and you could think it yourself.

Well people, I don't hate you. I don't discriminate people on what people do, wear etc. Well, you know how i am being nice to everyone. But this is just too much!

Journal Writing

Dear Diary,
Today is the worst day of my life. I was scolded by my English teacher...

Sound familiar? As far as I could remember, I start writing journal when I was 8 years old. Then it gets serious when I was 13 until now. Tadaaaa...These are all my journals...

I am now engaged with  My Froggy.(Second line, third journal)

Basically I have 9 journals. So what did I write in my journals?

  • All the ramblings. Happiness, the gediks feeling which I cant express, ideas, plans, opinions, thoughts etc.
  • Poems. Good poems, bad poems, poems tak siap, semua ada...hahaha
  • Tickets, pamphlets, or anything that could remind me to places that I went. 
p/s Actually I am going reedit this post. My mind is suffocated from all the ramblings happened in my life now. I HATE EYE INFECTION. lol