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Saturday, April 28, 2012

Dari hati

Malam hening di SMSL. Suara gemersik Alicia Keys kedengaran pada nada sederhana di speaker laptop. "Coz a real man knows a real woman when he sees her..." Ibu tidur awal dari biasa selepas Solat Isyak. Aku termenung menatap skrin komputer riba. Terlampau banyak yang harus dibuat, harus difikir, sampai PC di dalam tengkorak ku ini, kalau istilah orang komputer dipanggil 'hang'. Esok bertugas lagi. Lusa bertugas juga. Bagaimana harus ku luahkan isi hati ini yang aku tak mampu menyandang jawatan warden. 2 hari lepas aku tekad fotostat laporan doktor, tapi lidah ku kelu untuk berkata-kata. Oh tuhan, tolonglah hambaMu ini.

'Keropok Lekor' Attack

"Cik Fadzillah, anda diminta untuk ke Kuala Terengganu"

Here we go again. So, I was away approximately for 2 weeks. Few days in Kuala Lumpur, then I was off to Kuala Terengganu. Terengganu is a peaceful state. An as educators, we are amazed by the number of straight A's students in Terengganu. I was given a chance to stay in IPG Kampus Batu Rakit, the new building. This new campus are meant for the development of English Education. And guess what, the new rooms are well equipt with air-conds, and bathrooms too! WOW!

So what is special about Terengganu?
First of all, we have keropok lekor all the time. Terengganu have their unique eateries named ICT that stands for "Ikan Celup Tepung". They have fish, squids and prawns even for tea.



Sg Ganu

Tasik Kenyir (MAS FLIGHT TO KL)


And, I LOVE PASAR PAYANG! except with the fact that I am saving for my new car, so I couldn't buy myself a nice silk Batik.

On the second day, we managed to visit Taman Tamadun Islam and Masjid Kristal. It is situated next to Sg Terengganu (I guess?). And I could say Masjid Kristal is Malaysian Taj Mahal. Masha Allah, it's very beautiful.

And I manage to meet my coursemate, Farina...But due to my tight schedule, I cant visit her home. :(

What I learned from this trip?
Well, I was in Terengganu for debate competition for teachers. And I was in KL for the intensive training. I learned a lot about debate. But overall, I could say that debate teach me how to be diplomatic and how to express my opinions and how to convince others. And the rest is history. :)

Saturday, April 7, 2012

His Test

I am a novice teacher. Correction. I AM A SUPER BRAND NEW NOVICE TEACHER. I realize that I start my career at 25 years, 6 years of professional training as a second language learner and teacher. I accept my faith as a teacher in SBP or boarding school. I am unmarried (yet) but this  unexperienced new mother accept the faith that I have to take care other 500 kids at school.

I used to complain a lot. Lack of money and lack of freedom. People said that Be careful of what you wish for. I just received my first salary. So far, happy with the amount. I don't spend much as my life is 24-7 in the school compound.  I don't spend much except when I am in Kota Kinabalu.

Yet, why am I still unhappy?

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I have no time for myself. I have no time to read my books. I have no time to exercise. Sometimes, I don't have time to tell Him that 'I have no time'.

I have everything I want. Alhamdulillah. (I just have to work a bit hard to get my first car). Yet, I am still unhappy. I took days of thinking (while doing other jobs, of course!), why am I still unhappy. I got the answer while I was standing behind the lines of students in the Friday assembly.

"Kita akhiri perhimpunan dengan Tasbih Kifarah dan Surah Al-asr"


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Sesungguhnya saya manusia lemah. Dalam keadaan lemah dan stress, hampir saya tersungkur menangis. I realise that Allah is testing me. Allah tests me with the rezki that I received, with my profession and with the responsibilities as a teacher. I told my friend, Mila...." Dulu kita dikategorikan orang yang tiada life, hidup dalam kolej kediaman, tapi kita ada kawan. Now we have no one"... "Ella, we have HIM. Bertahan"

"Ya Allah, kurniakanlah rasa ringan dalam aku menjalankan tugas sebagai pendidik. Kurniakanlah aku ketabahan dan kekuatan. Jadikanlah segala amalku sebagai ibadat."